What the fuck am I saying

We count on people for a lot of things, but we mainly count on our family and our friends. For me friends have been my main source of counting. I grew up with my friends and when I say grow up I dont mean grow up in a traditional sense, as in babies. When something ends of course something new must begin and mine took place when I moved to Marlette. So my six close friends came from my beginning, my growing up phase. They have been there for the partying, the drinking and drugs. They heard a life born and then instantly die off. They have guided us through mental breakdowns, illegitment children and fathering children that are not ours. They've seen us move, move back, move away and let it all go. They all hold in common the fact that they see it first, family just hears of it. I dont like to be public, I like personal space, a space that no one else can see. I dont want to let anyone in it, because I dont like sympathy or empathy. I wont get excited, I wont say I like it, I wont cry at a funeral. I wont hug you and like it, I wont be "mushy". I'm not doing this for a response, I am doing this to start over. Like any engine things have to exhaust. I dislike woman, dont like them, I dont respect them. I have proven this time and time again, by misleading, using and leaving them. I do not regret this, I never have and never will. I feel no shame as a matter of fact I enjoyed it. I made it a game, I always win and if I cant, I will make sure we both lose. It has been 8 years since I even tried to care about someone other than my kids and I dont feel an ounce of pain. I feel nothing for the victims of my game, but remember my victims never feel physical pain. I believe in order to physicaly hurt someone you have to be emotional and care. I lack emotion and dont care, I go into everything with an exit strategy, when your planning the day, i've already planned the week. I wont let anyone get a step ahead of me.

"Don't cry, Don't Fear, you wont die, because I don't think deaths real"

In order to be vulnerable you have to feel and if you cant feel then you are always safe. Safety is key, safety is everything. Sometimes games end, faster than they started and safety is thrown away. Marc Antony went to Egypt to kill Cleopatra and instead fell in love. A wolf in a sheep's skin. My games are over, my time is up. I've decided that I have met my match and instead, the revealing wolf has become a sheep. Sometimes the enjoyment of pure happiness is overwhelming and cannot be controlled, sometimes you just don't give a shit what other people think. Sometimes its nice to think you could never fight with someone, get mad or walk away. Sometimes its easier to love than to hate. Sometimes its easier to just................................................... be happy.

EXCELLENT!!!!

DVD Cometh

When are the DVD god's gonna get off their asses and finally release this?

Shows

Well its been a while, if anyone cares. I just wanted to mention a couple of shows.

Kings -
Looks like its getting the boot, it went to Saturdays.

Southland -
This was the other new show NBC started, but the director of ER, its on Thursdays at 10:00. I really like this, excellent cop show. Plus it had an episode with Tom Sizemore, he played a strung out actor, what better role is there.

Dexter - Season 3
Watched this in Lincoln, fucking awesome, Dexter continues to sit on top. There is suppose to be a new season in 09, Cant wait for Californication to come back on either.

Rescue Me -
Still cant say enough about this show, but best to start from the beginning




LOST
Last episode, not the special episode the one before, was brilliant. We learned a lot and of course they threw a fucking wrench in at the end. If you havent been reading Dispatches from the Island, I highly suggest it. This post makes me laugh everytime, Soft Rock.

Jorge Garcia

World War Z

Speaking of Quantum of Solace the Director, Marc Foster, has been chose to direct World War Z.

Movie Weekend!!!!!!!

Bedtime Stories
This was actually a good, the kids liked it and I could deal with Sandler, not a big fan of his. I cant say I would have run out and get it, if it wasn't for the kids.

Marley and Me
This was good, really liked it, sad ending. I like how they didn't make the good things the dog did a big deal, it wasn't saving a hijacked bus or playing basketball. Everything was subtle, almost as if it was a side story. Cant stand Jennifer Aniston, tried the entire movie to find something appealing about her and couldn't do it. Not sure how she has gotten this far, she's not even sexy.

James Bond: Quantum of Solace (bluray)
I've heard a lot of people bitching about this and I have to say that I disagree. The only complaint I had about this was it seemed like they tried to slip in some of the "cuteness" of the older bonds. We don't need that, keep it gritty and real, just like its meant to be. If I had another complaint it would be the scar on Olga, nothing you can do to make her ugly, nothing. Other than my love for Olga, I thought it was another good bond movie. I have to say that by far Daniel Craig is my favorite, I hope he continues to stay in the series.

UH OH, ITS AN ASIA -
OLGA SANDWICH











I HATE THE WAY BLOGSPOT LAYS OUT THE PICTURES, THERE HAS TO BE A BETTER WAY

The Squirrels of Metro Park (Beach)

The kids and I went to Metro Park today, Damian has been wanting to see a "Great Lake". On our journey back from the water Damian said to me "look at the squirrel", to my suprise when I turned around the squirrel was about three feet from me. It didnt stop there, it went around Damian and came right up to sis and I. Hailie was scared and started to cry, but it didnt stop Sandy Cheeks from getting about 1 foot from us, sitting down and waiting patiently. It was almost like he was waiting for a command. We walked about 10 feet away and the squirrel went up on a bench a sat down. Another family was coming down the other crosswalk, we watched them walk by and the squirrel did nothing. We then walked back, Damian first, the squirrel got down walked past Damian and came right back to Hailie again. He was never aggressive, just over friendly, I think. Strange thing was we encountered another squirrel on the way back to the car and he did the same thing, walked right up, so close this time that Hailie screamed and made sure I picked her up.





Here are some photos, I also sent an invite to see more pictures taken