Wednesday, July 22, 2009


I dont do drugs
I dont drink
I dont gamble

Jealousy consumes me, it eats away at me. The moment I forget about it, it comes back full force.

It drains your face and pulls your chest in, all you want is to close your eyes, but your afraid. Your afraid if you stop looking something may pass you by.

It makes you look for things that aren't there and even if satisfied it reminds why you need to keep looking.

It fills your head with the worst possible images, it makes your mouth run.

It makes you take things to far, always going over the limit. One question leads to two, which leads to three, which leads to hang ups and then to fighting.

It makes you forget who is around you

It makes something of nothing and then more of less

It makes them scared

It makes them hurt

It makes you say "I'm Sorry"

It makes them leave

It makes you cry

It makes you sad

It doesnt allow you to enjoy anyone

Like a demon I can watch it destroy everything, yet I cant stop it. I let it take advantage of me whenever it wants. No matter how good the couple minutes prior where, it finds a way to destroy it. He fills your head with thoughts, images, feelings, things all meant to hurt.

It wont go away, until long after she does