If you have never seen the last Sopranos episode then you may not want to read this!!!!!!!!!
As I said before my last DVD in the Sopranos series came a couple of days ago. I tried this weekend to put it off and not watch it, but I couldn't. I held the secret to life in a little blue envelop, there was no way I could put this off anymore.
I became part of the family late in the game, around season 4 to be exact. I don't think that should take away the fact that I am a super fan and that this is the best show ever. I loved Tony, the family and all the goons that followed him. I was there with him on the Stugots when big pussy got it and I held my breath when Pauly went for his possible ill fated boat ride. I watched the kids grow up, the marriage go up and down, Tony screw up over and over. I was mad, not angry, and saddened when Tony helped Christopher die. He loved that man, he also loved Adrian, but he put his love for the family first. I don't think Tony saw that deep. Bobby getting it at the hobby shop was hard, I dont think he ever carried a gun, he didnt use one untill a few shows ago. Poor Sil, Consigliary to the family, he went down with a fight, never gave up. I was there, in that restaraunt that night, nervous like everyone else. "Jesus Meadow, park the fucking car." I knew this was it, there would be no more and in the back of my head, the talks of this "ending". We sat there, for once seeing life with (through) Tony and then, in no measurable time, we saw it end. I could feel it in my stomach minutes before, its Michael Corleone all over again. Young Michael, never wanted to be involved, but took on one major task that pushed him to the top. I dont see myself as a movie expert, but I knew what had happened and I thought it was brilliant. There was no second guessing, no looking in horror, no seeing the wake it leaves, just nothing. Thats life, exactly how it will be, nothing no more. We dont get to see people cry, or try to avenge our deaths, we dont even get a final song. It couldnt have been done better, I sit here with a hole in my heart, a blank feeling, because just as in reality, there are no answers.
There is nothing I could ever do to bring back Tony.
This is a great article and explains the end to detail, I am sure everyone who has seen it understands it, but this is a good read if your interested or especiacly if you didnt understand the end.